Has anyone else out there ever had a time when they were celebrating something really great with a friend..........something that that friend has been wanting and working really hard towards for a really long time..................and then suddenly that dream comes true..............and you're so excited and happy for them............but it totally rips your own heart out as you watch their happiness and wonder if you'll ever get your own dream?
One of those instances happened today for me. I don't really even quite know why, but I suddenly found myself hurrying to get out of the situation as quickly as I possibly could because I could feel myself coming unglued. I will admit that I am somewhat easily touched by certain things at certain times................but this was ridiculous and embarassing! I managed to make it to the car before the dam broke, but I found myself sobbing my heart out on my way home in a way that I haven't done in a very long time.
What is wrong with me? Please tell me that I'm not the only 'basketcase' out there! LOL
One of those instances happened today for me. I don't really even quite know why, but I suddenly found myself hurrying to get out of the situation as quickly as I possibly could because I could feel myself coming unglued. I will admit that I am somewhat easily touched by certain things at certain times................but this was ridiculous and embarassing! I managed to make it to the car before the dam broke, but I found myself sobbing my heart out on my way home in a way that I haven't done in a very long time.
What is wrong with me? Please tell me that I'm not the only 'basketcase' out there! LOL
8 comments:
Of course you are not the only one out there! I know what you mean and have gone through that before. You want to talk about it? I'm here for you anytime... Hang in there!
Hey Darla, I know exactly how you feel! I think you and I are in the same boat and whenever I hear the happy news of others it breaks my heart, although I am super happy for them, at the same time it makes me sad and wonder what is wrong with me? =) You're not alone!!
Hey Darla,
I found your blog! Hope all is well! See you in church next week!
My first Sunday back to church after my miscarriage was Mother's Day. I think we had 9 baby blessings that day. I know how it feels to hold your heart in your hands and hide it from everyone around you. I went home that day too. I think its okay to be a basketcase sometimes. Love you. Serious need for a girls night out...how about Oct 11?
For safety sake, I changed my blog name to http://camboslife.blogspot.com/. Come find me still!
Darla,
I found your blog through my sister-in-law, Jen Sorensen. You and her are visiting teaching companions.
I personally don't know what you are going through but do know how it feels to have a basketcase of a day! You are not the only one. I don't know why some people can so easily have children while others can't. It seems like those that don't want kids seem to have them more frequently and easier than others. Believe me...I see it everyday in my job. I also don't know why you are having to go through this particular trial but I do know that this has made you a very strong person. After reading your blog I am positive that you are one of the strongest people I know. You have such a powerful testimony and great faith in the plan our Heavenly Father has for us. If anything, this trial has made you a better person and a great example for others around you. I appreciate your faith and your courage. Keep being strong! YOu are amazing.
Savanna Sorensen (from the Sunset Ridge 6th ward)
I've been there too, Darla! Three miscarriages, one of them a stillborn, was more than I could handle at times. I have to say, the good, hard cry, feels good sometimes. I think it is all a part of the healing process! The Lord works in ways that we don't understand but he does love you and is fully aware of your hearts desires.love ya!!
This happens to me a lot. Especially the past year, and especially with adoption. I cried YESTERDAY watching...get this, THE BRADY BUNCH. Yes, yes I did. you are not alone.
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